Why are we human?


I'm writing, hence i'm sad. True, very true but i'm not truly sad, i'm sad and confused, i'm sad because many people in my life have decided to part company if not completely then atleast emotionally and this month has been the single most emotionally overloaded month that i've had for years, people grow apart slowly, they fall out of love over their own stupid realizations, they are ripped by distance and drift apart. While some just soldier on fighting and making up then fighting again then making up again in a cycle that keeps them sensitised to each other. While some go far away and some remain stuck in the moment that they just can't get out of. While only one type truly strive to understand each other, if they are doomed for the worse i don't want to know and if they are doomed to end up together i still don't want to know just that they are doomed either way should be enough. If you can relate to what has been written here kudos cause a lot of what i've written is very ambiguous.

I'm confused because why are we such suckers for pain, the irony is that when i asked someone that how is everything going she said it is good, and to that i replied "if everything feels good, be prepared for it to be screwed up soon" and then the calamitous incidents of yesterday happened. But i still don't understand that why are we such suckers for pain why is it that when we are happy and content it just doesn't work out, we always end up miserable if not instantly then gradually. Is it because it is in our 'screw the good thing' gene i shudder to think if that were to be present. Or it could be because we are indians that we can only understand the scorching temperatures or enough cold to make your fingers fall off, autumn is spent thinking of the winter ahead and spring is spent complaining of the summer to come.

Trust me i have tried to wrap my head around this concept as logically as my brain would permit but i cannot come to any valid conclusion that would be admissible to the sensibilities of my thoughts, maybe herein lies the futility of my actions i'm trying to logically analyze something that is in itself illogical and hence cannot be fathomed by logic alone i would have to travel to the depths of the chaos called love, lose my mind in the process and become an incomprehensible baboon. Now a stupidity of that level is not permissible by my current state of extreme sobriety. The question is why people fall in love and not why they fall out of love. The reasons i've heard are many, varied, far fetched, and absolutely flimsy and the universal statement "you won't understand what we have."
And now i scoff at these people who tried their luck, because they know it or not but they are doomed, for what i donot know but for certain i know that they are doomed.
And this is to my sane friends whose count stops at one. THIS IS TO ME AND THEKA cheers to being single for now. What, do you think i'm conceited enough to say that i'll be single forever? i laugh at you.

Just one last thought...maybe this can shed some light.
"We see the world as we are, not the way it is."

Comments

  1. i love d way u write..u put ur heart into the words...but while reading this i actually lost track of wat d gist of the blog was..just be a lil un equivocal...................but apart from dat u always knw i love d way u express urself wid words..this how one wud describe u probably

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  2. Moushi ma'am this post is best described by deepankar it is an angry rant, about all the idiocy that is happening. but thank you

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  3. i likes....totally agree....n cheers 2 us singles...!!!

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  4. the angry rant also shows how much u care...how much u r affected by all that goes around u...n how sensitive u r to the feelings of those near...kudos not just for the beautiful flurry of emotions that flew above but also to u as a person who takes time to care... time to c and help... time to love (not in the way u expressed above)... kudos to u varunda...

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  5. Here i see the uncommon Cox !
    the one who is so rigid, yet when things hit hard, he's there and hit hard too !!
    Your sensitivity towards the blemishes of life is gracefully put into words answering your very own question. Why are we humans ? Cheerz to us Varunda ! cccccccchhhheeerrz 2 us !

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  6. the point being pranav there are few that i care about and when they lead a path of self destruction, yes it does hit me very hard. You know if the time came and if i could i would gladly take all of you guys' pain for my own, just so that you would be happy so that i could be happy

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  7. @ aakriti cheers dear.
    @zain that is the question indeed. cheers to us man cheers to us

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  8. right said fred..."we see the world as we know it..not as it is".. but that infact makes us humans...cuz world out thr is indeed bad and shrude...and if all of us start behaving that way you wont have felt this pain and wrote this blog. cheerz to all of us...who atleast care for eachother...love you all guys.
    "zindagi ke is safar mein kai mod aayenge,
    chalte jo hum rahenge na dil ko wo dhukhayenge,
    ek dard sa hoga par sambhal hum jayenge,
    chalte hum jayenge..chalte hum jayenge..."

    so keep moving folks!!!

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  9. cheerssss varun for we r single and wht happened to u al of a sudden....y u so emotional??? kal pi li thi kya???? bcoz after reading this CAT RC passage of 800 words in 2 min(i hv a gud speed in short) i realise that becuse of these reasons we al r gud frnz.. and the distance b/w us guyz and still the same interaction shows r friendship... n moushmi mam se pooch sahil ko chodda???

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  10. a few of my own words...
    why is pain an unwelcomed guest in our life?
    why is'losing the good part' a constant fear?
    for let me tell you, most of the time, smiling is much more difficult than shedding a tear...

    kudos to all those who care n share...

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  11. Kudos to all who loved and loved so much to take the bold steps to separate n keep loving.
    Kudos to us..
    Kudos to u Varunda whose love is selfless n limitless.. We cherish u, perhaps even more than v let on..
    Love u...

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  12. @beyond milestones...app kaun hain....arrey kyaa aap chaman chaurasiya to nahi...jo mujhe ndls par miley they
    @anuj- bhai kaash pi sakta, and thank u for the compliment that my passage was cat level.
    @shivangi-beautiful

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  13. @hundoo- give me a couple of days man....

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  14. dada, i learnt the kudos thing though this article only...kudos to u frm ma side too!!
    as i read,

    i noddded in affirmative many a times n ws pulled into tht state i call(sochne wala time) ... and dada, im sure everybdy thinks they have made a sensible decision initially, and when they realise the former decision was actually senseless, they make another senseless decision, thinking they are pretty sensible this time....
    and this is an infinite for loop...
    kudos to all, who share and care...
    kudos to the momentary unbelievable happiness,
    thak keep misguiding many sensible people every now and which is followed by long periods of sadness.
    i love varunda the most...an he loves us all..:)

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  15. whooa so many grammatical errors!! maafi
    maine publish hone ke baad padha yaar..:(

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  16. never a problem chottu never a problem

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  17. i had actually read all ur blogs but had forgotten that i've read them coz i find this one the best..maybe coz its got a little bit of all of us in it..or maybe coz it reflects the side of varun that i love..or maybe its just the way u wrote it..but there is one thing that i admire the most about all of ur blogs is the pix u choose to associate with ur blogs.. [apart frm the topics..of course]...varun, u r born to b a writer..

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