I wish i Could fly...

Another haze of smoke clears from my face as i drag another lungful from the hokaah in front of me, i taste something delicious and look around to pass it to someone else, and all i see is strangers from a strange land, suddenly i realize i'm not in kansas anymore. These faces smile, joke and laugh, their eyes full of mirth, and i'm a stranger in their midst. I strain my eyes to see a familiar face, to see someone who is not an empty shell of existence, my gaze passes from face to face and i realise that i'm executing an exercise in futility, i break into sweat and in a most "inceptionesque" way wonder how i had gotten there, sadly it was not a dream and i had to live that moment for what it was. My sweat peppers my forehead despite the air-conditioning, i want to run from that place screaming at the top of my voice just to feel myself again, to convince myself that it is not a dream, but i control the panic and leave the smoke box to gather a precious few breaths,
again i see those faces staring at me, a smile playing on their lips, no not a smile....a smirk, yes it is a smirk playing on their lips, and then i'm reminded, one of the truest and purest memories, that this is the way a pack of hyena's look at their prey, judging, calculating, how many would be needed to bring it down, and i start to hyperventilate, the fresh air not doing its bit, the smirk still plays on their lips, moving ever closer for the kill, and i feel myself weaken, my breath coming in short bursts and the demons of hell come to drag me finally, into the depths of the inferno. I feel the terror clawing at me, i want to break off but they come ever closer, their faces not quite visible now, only a voice which says....."join ussssssssss, join usssssssssss, join usssssssssss, we will take your pain, we will give you power, join usssssssss" and through their words i see the truth, the eternal solitude that i have in front of me and the eternity of guilt, remorse and suffering.
I'm tired of fighting, tired of living this lie........

As i prepare to take this fight to its final insanity, she comes for me, wings blazing aura blinding and takes me away, i fly away from the hell from those demons, and to my own sanity i fly and i see how beautiful everything is, i drink in her aura and know that it will not last, i will be set down and then one day, the hyena's will get me and drag me down to the 7th circle of hell, despite this i fly and lose myself in the peace that i will never be able to keep, i cherish this little moment because i know my fate is to be the devil's guest, but not today........not today.